understanding how and why this up down in and out shit is supposed to be okay. I never really learned how to function in a relationship that was more than friends but not quite lovers. i’m wrong for everything i do. you don’t like my friends, clearly exes are a negative, and now i can’t hang with guys? the only thing left for me to enjoy on this earth is plants and animals. smh. boy i’ll tell ya, i’m not even going to get mad, but that insecurity is a crazy muthafucka ain’t it?